Melonade

I know a lot of people at church have been surprised (possibly even disturbed) by my recent behavior. It's understandable. If someone who appeared reserved and inhibited all the time suddenly became outgoing and showed up at numerous social functions, I'd probably be a little confusd, too. Except, being me, I completely understand that people who may seem shy are not as timid as you may think.

The recent retreat was the instigator of this new phase. Now I spend no less than four nights a week with people; most of the time I'm only home alone one night a week. For a person who is used to spending most of her time alone or with only one or two other people, this new phase can be very exhausting very quickly.

What most people don't realize is that the outspoken, goofy me is nothing new. She's always been a part of me even when she wasn't allowed out very often.

The best thing I read recently came from my far away friend who has seen me through all phases:

You sound so fun and happy. I am glad you are doing so well. In all your social glory, please don't forget those of us who've loved you all along. :)

I realized after reading her email that I am a lot happier than I have been in a long time. It's strange now that I look back on the last couple of years. I didn't think that I could have been any better off than I was (even through the ugly times).


For the weekend's GSA, they go out to everyone who said "I should get a gold star for that." As far as I can tell, you all deserved them.

Enjoy your day.